Dilemma,

okay firstly, some of you might not be familiar with this instrument. it is called Marching Bell and it is played in the marching band or known as brass band too. 

what i want to write here is what is going on in my mind for this 2 weeks. I was originally from Brass Band when I was in part 1. i enjoyed my time practicing with the seniors especially Kak nadia. She taught me nicely and i understood what she wanted to deliver. I was also aware that as i get serious about the band, I will be accepted as their trainees.

I love playing the marching bell, and no doubt about it. But the thing is, I'm afraid that I couldn't give full commitment to the band. it might sound silly as if I'm whining. But I'm not. Clearly we can see that none of the band members are in DCA course (i'm focusing on percussion). I have 2 kitchen per week and it all started at noon ends at night. Believe me, if the band are making practice for a show, their rehearsal or practice will be drag until late night. and I'm not saying that I disagree with them.

I know I'm not capable to move around and do multi tasking. its just not me. I can teach people how to play, I can play the marching bell (amateur) but i don't want to make myself involved in the drum battle team. i know it is a big opportunity, however I don't think i can do it.

the so-called-talent that I have i will only use it for KoKu purpose. not more. and since now I've changed my Koku to HKR111, I hope i can have a good rest for myself. a break from a whole week of pack schedule.

I don't know how would they feel if they were in my shoes.

VLADS, family and friends, i need opinions about this.

Kak Nadia invite me to join them back, but I'm in a dilemma.

SHOULD I? / SHOULDN'T I?

mood : sleepy